“Oh a new project? Ah I’ll start on Monday”
Anyone else do this?
I am the queen of the ‘starting on Monday’ feeling. If there was an award for most usage of ‘starting on Monday’ I would be the winner. I would be crowned ultimate champion for doing this
I don’t even know if this has an official name it’s probably linked back to Imposter Syndrome that I spoke about recently, but let’s say for example I have something I want to do, start drinking more water, start a new class, a new project, whatever, and I think about it on a Thursday, I’m suddenly like I’ll start that on Monday. Or if I have something I need to do, book an appointment, finish a bit of work and I have a week to do it, I’ll think ah I’ll do it next week.
Why not just do it then and there?
Why do I do this to myself?
Also I’m fully aware I’m posting this on a Monday….and yes I had the idea to do this last week, and yes I am writing this at 7am on the Monday morning rather than last week when I could have had it prepped. This is my point.
I’ve always been this way as far as I can remember. Even just leaving things to the last possible minute, and getting so stressed about the fact I don’t have enough time to do it. Why don’t I just do it in advance, with more time? I don’t know, I’ve always felt like I need a bit of pressure to complete a task. At University, I opted not to do a dissertation, rather going for multiple exams instead. I knew that a dissertation needed months to prepare, and I would leave it all until the last week, and be going around in a flap. Now I never compromise the quality of what I do, I am fully confident that whatever I put out into the world isn’t half arsed, but it definitely will have been done with a few days to spare rather months. I have desperately tried to be one of those people who have their shit together weeks in advance, but I’m just not that person.
There’s something about the freshness of a new week that appeals to me in terms of having a goal. Back in May it was the 1st of the month on a Monday and this was additionally pleasing to me. But, what does it matter, time is irrelevant, what does a Monday have any different to a Wednesday, why does it matter? But for some reason in my brain it does.
Is it bad that I don’t do things in advance, as long as I get them done? I don’t know, but I know it would make me feel a whole lot calmer and in control. I ache for that feeling.
I’d like to be one of those people who’s done with tasks well in advance, but to be honest, I think this is just the way I am. If you’re one of these people, have you always been like this, or did you have to train yourself?
Is anyone else guilty of this?